sucky life

haiz..life is really bad..how would u feel if someone u love is with someone else..this isnt fair..i dunno why i love her so much..i mean i am thking of her everyday.it is getting me more sick..i cant study..everyday my brain is nothing but her..hate her..why is she doing this to me..juz read her diary and she haf part time gf..OMg..watx wrong with her*knock*..haiz..was talking to gere yesterday..sad to hear some stuff..if u were to ask me who to blame i will blame both of them..the reason for mel: She's so haiz..cant even help gere or ask them not to get involve..yeah i know how gere feel when everyone is against her..the reason for gere: sometimes i dun understand if u really love a gal..u should be by her side 24/7 and not with many gals..and u wana be with her bec u juz like her more..this izzit fair..how could u haf so many gals by ur side..have u ever feel wat mel's thinking..of course she will get hurt..if i were her i will feel hurt too..sucky life..

wish i could help u gere..but juz like we said i am powerless n useless..no point getting invovle..i will make things worst..so gd luck u 2..

i wana be a crook ..kinda miss crook life..but guess it is over..well i cant predict the future..but yeah large percentage of not becoming one again.. Till today i cant imagine myself getting a bf..doesnt fit me well..dunno why..kinda freaky..ha..i am afraid one day i will go out of control and before u know it i am *aheM*..die manz.. Yeah but not to worry erwina..for now it is the books..no guys no gals juz me and the bks..not ready to hop into a relationship..love observing people's life but not mine..