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Was it my mistake when i left mel..haiz..i dunno was busy studying bio when this thk came by..was busy studying n all this sad memories start flowing in..hurts so much..i remember the people all around me asking me why did i leave her when i love her so much..i had a choice n i said no ..was it my fault..kinda sad to leave someone u love..juz miss the past..heather's present juz keep on making me cry..i miss Singapore..I miss Stc..i miss my friends..i miss 4 st joan..i miss my beast friend n i miss mel..when am i going back..for wat i knoe i wont be back this yr..how saddening is dat..dad lie to me..now stuck here..i dunno whether will i ever be back nx yr..haiz..juz miss hanging around orchard..having fun with everyone..i miss myself..i miss shu fen..i need another life..i wana get out of here..looking forward for home will never come..wat if i didnt return nx yr..3yrs away from Sin..this wasnt the plan my parents told me..this wasnt..everyone juz lie to me..wat am i suppose to do..stuck in this county all alone..powerless..wat my parents ask me to do i juz follow..this izzit fair..anyway the world izzit fair..sick of studying..no one know how hard i try..why am i so stupid..study so hard unable to obtain the resuts being expected..hate my life..now the only thing i haf is my education..swimming, playing, shouting and happy voice is all gone..how sucky can life be without anyone really supporting..yesh my family do support me..but in another way..they dun know how hard i try..not say i wana transfer to Harvard..i juz wana go somewhere i belong..not somewhere that will kill me..wats the point of having everything when ur not happy..i wana swim i wana go play in the beach..not some gal that study till 2am everyday juz to get into nursing school..all i want is to get into nrsing sch..but it seems so diffcult..everyone is smarter than me..what sort of life do i haf..